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feelings that go from 2011 - 2012

2011-12-31T23:57:00.001+08:00

started to push everything to something call faith..

there is some messages i wanted to pass to someone today but couldn’t mange to do so..

didn’t regret, because at least i have tried my best…

maybe this is a hint that today is not a suitable timing to pass this message to the person..

maybe there is a chance and faith in the future that would allow me to do so, or maybe, there isn’t…

have been struggling through lots of hard times in this year…

things i’ve gain, things i’ve lost…

used to think that, new year is just a normal day but today i feel different due to the problem of letting go…

been telling myself to change to be a better person; not for anyone but for myself…

started to ignore things that not under my concern, started to take things not serious because of the consequences it might bring…

relationships between friends, lovers and family has brought lots of problems to me in this year…

and that’s what we call LIFE..

faith decides everything, things happen or wont happen is all depend on faiths…

tried my best to put in effort to make things happened, memories created, lesson learned, and now is time to learn to let things go…

turning 21 in few minutes more, i wish my 21st birthday will be a special one.. and there are few people that i wish i could celebrate with them.. i hope my new year little dreams will come true… and if it happens, i would be appreciate those moments i can have…

thanks for everything and sorry for everything…

bye 2011 and welcome 2012… *tears drop*

学会珍惜

2011-07-11T18:37:00.001+08:00

虽然懂得一切人，事，物

都不会停留在自己身边永远永远

但至少在这个时刻，

我知道我正在拥有着这些人与物

人活在当下，

过去也许留下很多遗憾，

未来也许很迷惘~

但现在，

自己拥有的却是很实在

当下的自己，

应该觉得满足

应为你现在拥有的

是属于自己的~

知心朋友不用多

更不用去找

我有你们这几个给予的爱

一起创造属于我们的故事

已经足够我去用一辈子来回忆

去怀念~

让自己去学会珍惜当下拥有的感情

无论是有名无份

无论是有名有份

无论是友情爱情

只要付出的感情是来自于真心的

那一切都只不过是表面上的那一层

底牌是什么，自己知道就好了~

琐碎的小事

2011-06-13T01:25:00.001+08:00

男生看到的都是大纲

而女生看到的都是内容

男主外女主内这句话，

应该也是这样来的吧~

有时候，女生默默不出声

独自一个人感到伤心

当被问起的时候

却不知道该说些什么

为什么会这样?

是因为她们都在想一些小事情

而不懂得怎么和别人说

因为说了，别人都只会觉得她很无聊

计较一些无谓的小事

但就是因为这些小事

确实可以令一个女生觉得很甜蜜

但也可以伤到她的~

bad… very bad….

2011-05-28T19:14:00.001+08:00

first time fail exam in uni

but since i dun hav confident to this 2 subjects

already knew will fail

anyway, will study harder from now on dy…

dunno what to write dy… ciao~~

恐慌

2011-05-26T00:44:00.001+08:00

也许眼前的日子过得好

就会害怕遇到瓶颈

也许现在得到了你

就会害怕失去现在拥有的一切

你告诉我

既然相爱，何必想谁会先离开谁

而我选择了相信你对我说过的承诺

知道你很保护我，照顾我，也很疼我

其实那不就很够了吗？

为什么我还奢望那么多啊？

believe & trust

2011-05-19T15:24:00.001+08:00

我真的很想就只相信你一个，

你说什么我都会信

但我很怕我会盲从

而伤害了自己

我知道你不会伤害我

但在一天内

我听到了很多很多我不想听到的事非

事与非连我都不知道从那里拿出证据

脑里全是疑问，眼泪也跟着留下，

只想把一切丢掉，因为我没有证据证明和说服我自己不去相信你

宝贝，我爱你，真的

不敢告诉你，不敢和你说，不敢去问你

因为不想在你面前哭

因为知道你会担心，会心痛

我想知道一切

是因为我真的很怕

我怕你会离开我

你对我做出的承诺

是我能够撑下去的理由

求你不要毁了我的支撑

因为我真的会垮~

想要不放手，但不能不放，眼睁睁的把一切送走，看着泪水蒙蔽了双眼，也只能告诉自己，这是你唯一可做，也唯一能做的~

我最担心的，就是这一天的到来

lovely day

2011-05-05T00:56:00.001+08:00

feel so happy that everything goes very well today~

sweet & happy day for all 4 of us~~

only thing is forgot to take pictures

haha.. nvm lar~

next monday guess it will be another lovely day for me~ ^^

holiday~~

2011-04-30T15:28:00.001+08:00

thank you baby~~

you have made my day yesterday~

knowing that you wont be around till monday,

guess i have to find a lot of stuff to do during this few days~~

things to do during holiday:

~clean my table

~clean my wardrobe

~hang out with dear and baby =p

~do research for Australia trip with mommy

~make cousin’s wedding invitation card

thats all i can think about at this moment… XD

miss you~~

2011-04-16T22:10:00.001+08:00

~*-+~*-+~*-+~*-+~*-+~*-+~*-+~

Sometimes

I just need you to hug me

and tell me

you'll always be there.

-+~-+~*-+~*-+~*-+~**-+~*~*-+~

关心

2011-03-29T21:03:00.001+08:00

有些话一直很想和这位朋友说

虽然每次和你见面的时候

和你都没两句

甚至不知道你最近干什么

但每次看你的部落格

都会觉得好像和两个人相处一样

无论如何，我都会永远支持你这位朋友的啦

不经意的，你已教会我很多事

你和我说过的话，我都还记得

就连打桌球，如果那时没遇见你

我应该也很难找到一位好像你这样的教练吧？呵呵

不知道你还会不会来读我的部落格

但想和你说一声谢谢，还有拜托你好好照顾你自己的身体和你的那颗心好吗~~

silent mode

2011-03-16T23:38:00.001+08:00

~chooses to stay silent for a short period~

玩偶

2011-03-10T02:55:00.001+08:00

一个玩偶

只有笑容

没有心脏

没有心跳

没有感觉

没有感受

不会哭

也不会哈哈笑

你可以把它丢在一旁

它也不会生气

等你真的需要它的时候

才会拿起来

抱一抱

这就是所谓的玩偶~

my way

2011-03-04T23:23:00.001+08:00

i have my own way

plz don’t try to affect me from changing the way that i want to go…

i know i am a sensitive person

i clearly know that i am a person that easy to get influence…

the time when i fallen deeply,

i got scolding and sayings from others,

the time when i decided to go on my way,

i got influence by others’ thoughts and ways too…

now i am totally back to zero…

i was almost healed from the previous way but now i am not…

so i cant use back the same way to solve it anymore…

i had cracked my head on thinking the suitable way to look at the problem,

but what i thought of and what i did was just how to satisfy everyone but not myself.

what the hell is this now?

快快乐乐的

2011-02-15T20:31:00.002+08:00

这两天其实令我觉得自己笑了很多

昨天情人节

宝贝送了巧克力给我

很美也很好吃~~

虽然最近发生了很多事

不得不承认我是很不开心

觉得很暗淡~

但我相信这些日子不会过得很久

因为我好像看到了一点的光线了

今天朋友们来拜年

dear, roney, christine, kevin, jinkiat & hongkeat

很可惜今天师傅仔和 shin chieh 都不在~~

可是没关系啦~~

很久没有跟roney这样好谈了

觉得他变了

哈哈，至少没那么木头了啦~~

dear & christine 也帮我配首饰和晚装，

终于不用烦了，只差发型和化妆而已~~

谢谢捧场咯朋友~

吃吃喝喝的，有说有笑~~

有点觉得幸运因为某某人没空

也许他的不在，我才知道怎么轻轻松松的笑

快快乐乐的玩~~

他的存在反而让我觉得有压力，而压抑真正的自己~~

也许爱依然在心中，

但是理智已经不让自己的心继续放任下去了~~

~*+~只想做一个快快乐乐的女孩~+*~

新年咯！！！！！！！！！

2011-02-02T10:12:00.001+08:00

虽然越长越大

新年对我来说

越来越普遍

应该说是

没有以前像小孩那样

乱蹦乱跳吧。哈哈

昨晚被堂哥问

为什么我每天都那么消极

我也告诉他前因后果了

他也吓了一跳~

然后听他说心事

巨蟹座的人

真的很难挖他的心事出来叻

做了二十年堂哥堂妹

听他说心事的次数

我看三次都不到吧~~

好吧，不说了。

要帮忙父母做一些清洁了

等下去婆婆家~~ ^^

should and shouldn’t

2011-01-21T00:07:00.001+08:00

ok, this is not the time i should think about stuff other than studies… whatever happening or happened between us is not suppose to distract me from doing all my assessments.

what i should do, i did.. what i should take next step, i am doing it… all i want to say is i do not feel even 1 sec of regretting upon what i did…

about blogging…. not planning to update frequently….

dats it…

兄妹情

2011-01-14T14:39:00.001+08:00

也许我和你只能拥有兄妹之间的情

也许这样我才会懂得如何和你相处吧

既然你只当我是你的妹妹

那至少我现在知道自己在你心目中的身份

我也知道我只能做一个妹妹能做的事

今天看你心情蛮急躁的

也不想问你太多

只希望我们可以一如往日

那样的打打闹闹的

尊重你，也接受了事实

也许保持兄妹之间的情谊

对我们才是最好的结果

习惯了现在

2011-01-11T00:36:00.001+08:00

原本以为能够在youtube上找些钢琴版的歌来听听，

舒缓一下自己的脑和心

但没有一首歌能够舒缓现在的心情

dear今天给我看的书

令我一直回想起书里写的东西

不肯向前走一步

是因为习惯了现在

害怕改变

更害怕失去

我承认现在我是不想有任何改变

但我知道这样下去不是办法

想太多又怎么样

没有事情会发生如果不踏出第一步

但这一步真的很难

需要信心

更需要陪伴的我

渐渐的失去自我

走一步还是停留原地？

2011-01-07T13:30:00.001+08:00

现在两个都不肯向前走一步

想要怎样？

如果可以我真的不希望这一不是我走先

因为我真的不知道你的反应会是如何

退一步？

还是你会配合我？

我真的不知道

我只知道如果我迟迟不走这一步

我会更辛苦

每天担心你在想些什么

有时候还觉得我对你来说

是个玩具多过是个人

觉得你很不尊重我

但是我又问自己

我有资格生气你吗？

我有资格怨你吗？

我凭什么啊？？

心意

2011-01-06T12:46:00.001+08:00

我曾问过自己为什么要对别人好

对自己在乎的人好

昨天我送了宝贝一对耳环

是纯白金的

虽然是一个免费的礼物

但我一拿到它的时候

第一个想起的就是dear

然后我就很想送给她

却担心她会不喜欢

很在乎她的感受

但当我送了给她之后

她说她很喜欢

很美

过后我就觉得很开心

昨天我也给了一个手工卡片给一个朋友

他也很喜欢

很感激这份心意

昨天我心情真的很好

也发现了

原来当你对你在乎的人好的时候

如果他感激你的所作所为

你就能够得到真真的开心

但相反的，如果对方觉得没什么

或者觉得烦

该问问自己，这个人是否值得你对他好

值不值得不论到别人说

是由自己去判断。

对他，这个答案，我还正在找着

new year

2011-01-02T13:34:00.001+08:00

what do new year means?

does it means things can dump behind and just forget about it?

does it means everyone are reborn on this day?

answer is no

what i see from others is,

they will think of “forget about problems in 2010”

problems and matters wouldn’t be solved because of new year

you cant apply ignorance to problems happened in 2010

new year is just because a cycle of 365 days come to an end

and since is a cycle, it still will continue counting

new year doesn’t mean you must have new life… because you are not reborn yet…

life still continue as how it used to be…

31/12

2010-12-31T01:13:00.001+08:00

还记得去年的今天

我也有很多感触

也发现去年陪着我的朋友们

今年整年都没联络了

可能这些都是属于我的生活中的过路人吧

但很幸运的是

有一些还是在我身边陪着我

从朋友变成好朋友

从好朋友变成知己

从知己成了宝贝

让我们尽力把我们之间的感情

继续维持下去吧

我知道不能永远

但至少我们彼此能够创造多一点的回忆

也可以给大家一个机会去分享对方的快乐与不快乐

有人去也有人来

今年也认识了很多新朋友

无可否认，每一年我的情路都很难走

也可以说是自己拿来的吧

自己要选这条路来走

跌跌撞撞的，弄到整身伤和疤

眼睛一眨，我也单身了三年

很想学会如何爱一个人

但却没有机会

我不懂得如何爱一个人

如何接受他的缺点

如何把对方融入自己的生活中

至于健康方面

我竟然的了胃痛病

叹气~~

学业方面呢

还正在找回信心

家人方面

也是叹气了

我也不懂怎么说~~~

新的一年，其实对我来说没什么特别

我只希望能够学会如何珍惜和身边的人一起的时光

圣诞节

2010-12-25T16:26:00.001+08:00

每一个人都会在这个时候许下一个愿

为什么人会许愿呢？

是因为想要得到一些不能够靠自己的力量而得到的东西吗？

如果能靠自己的实力去得到，

那为什么还要许愿呢？

我们许愿，是想要告诉上天

告诉命运

希望命运能够带给我们需要的东西

愿上天能够给与我们想要的事与物

而当我们许下愿的那一刻

其实自己的心，已经有一个希望

有动力去往这个愿而努力。

为什么人看命运大多数是看手掌？

因为人的命运就掌握在自己手中

不是吗？

但其实有时候也是要靠运气和机会

这就是我们掌握不到的力量。

愿望其实来自一刻纯洁的心儿希望得到的东西

在这里祝愿大家圣诞节快乐，

也希望你们的小小愿望终有一天会达成吧~~

Merry Christmas

原来我也有这样的一天

2010-12-17T13:15:00.001+08:00

说实话，我没有后悔过

但以后的日子就很难说。

这些事又有谁能够给意见

明明就是不应该的

但却控制不住

没有人真的能够明白我现在的心情

只能够说

我对这份感情是认真的

我知道不可能

但我没想过

原来我被注定了

需要面对这些事的一天

holiday

2010-12-10T01:38:00.001+08:00

sayang bloggy first… hahaha

firstly, not i dont want to update my blog

but recently have too many things to solve but just cant write out at this blog, since it can view by others..

anyway, thx to my kor kor for accompanying me watch movie today… ^^ very happy…

this holiday really very busy doin cards… hahaha…

parents anniversay la, christmas la, birthday la…

wan faint dy….

table like having war for almost 1 week dy… XDD

不想，不管，不理

2010-11-24T13:19:00.001+08:00

什么事都好

就算最近的我

发生了很多不愉快的事

但为了考试

我已经很尽力的把一切暂放一边

虽然很辛苦

虽然很难

但我告诉自己

就一个星期

熬过这个星期

才解决其他事

还好身边有几位真心朋友还有宝贝的支持

总算能够让我有能力熬下去

再痛

也要忍住泪水

再伤

也得要咬着牙关忍下去

幸运小女孩

2010-11-15T16:02:00.001+08:00

不知道你们会不会看得到这篇文~ 但我真的很想写出来~~

今天choonie带我进他的班去见其他的朋友~

那里知道我坐他的位不肯走，害他说很后悔带我进去，哈哈~

玩了一阵子，师傅还打来说看到我在班里~ XDD

过后还拉着choonie不给他进班~ 哈哈！！

但是说真的，今天真的很开心，虽然半个小时都不到，但我却发现我很久都没那样子笑过了~

尤其是最近因为生病和学业的问题，根本就笑不出~

虽然跟他们不是说每天聊天，但跟他们一起相处的时候，真的很开心~

可能我想我在他们的眼中还是个小女孩吧~

无论我多无聊，多调皮，他们也不会嫌弃，反而还跟我一起玩到疯~

真的觉得很幸运因为有你们这几个朋友，谢谢你们带给我的欢乐和包容~~

Tiring

2010-11-11T07:28:00.001+08:00

Sry for not updating the bloggy even thou i came back homie from Japan~~

stories during the trip will blog soon after my exams, but the trip was awesome and fun~~ ^^

recently very stress out due to few reasons: sick, exams, study, missed classes, people surrounding.

but luckily there are still some friends which willing to comfort me and be there for me. thx alot..

but there are also some which create more problems and make me feel more angry and headache for example assignment groupmates..

anyway, having account mid term exam tmr, didn’t even sleep much since i came back from trip.

~+*~TIRED~*+~

byebye

2010-10-23T14:44:00.001+08:00

on vacation till 29th Oct… ^^

will update when reach homie…

Hi :D

2010-10-21T14:10:00.001+08:00

PinHui Was Here :)

first step

2010-10-19T02:49:00.000+08:00

first started degree course is actually consider challenging for myself, any kinds of emotions come in: worries, exciting, happy, etc…

doing advanced in everything is because dowan to be the one who lost. starting to take study as hobby, as a must… i think this attitude has been changed during my holiday life. hope it can last longer… XDD

anyway, fall sick recently so need to rest more. goin to bring a small note book to japan this saturday to write down what i do and feel everyday… hope i can able to enjoy the trip without thinking about assignments… XDD

lastly, remind myself all the time not to touch on something which involve my deep feelings… letting things to be as what it has to be. maybe this is the best way to cure my wound…

nitez~~

plan

2010-10-06T17:45:00.001+08:00

i decided to make a plan for my study life and also plans for my holidays

for my 1st semester in degree which is a short sem

hopefully i can put all my effort on account this subject

to see whether i can go for this subject and

whether i can gain the feeling of interest during the class.

for my next holiday plans are:

1 – work in Kumon because i miss my students

2 – continue study Korean language

3 – if possible, i would like to buy a book which is about Body Languages

曾经听人说过，如果当自己没有东西做，又或则学校放假的时候没有读书；

尽量找一些东西学，语言也好，运动也好。不但可以得到更多知识，不但可以充实自己，

另一个原因就是，不要让脑袋停止学习，要不然以后真的不知道如何继续读书。

在这个假期，足足有五个月，前两个月，我在家什么都没做，只是玩电脑和看戏。

超无聊的！！

过后我开始去找工作，也开始学韩语。每一天都觉得很开心很充实。

虽然有时候还是会想很多，但是我也觉得自己开朗了很多。

也有了发奋之心，或许是因为当老师当了几个月

自己开始有自律 *除了早睡* 哈哈

希望可以把这些精神，放在以下两个月里的课程

一直提醒自己告诉自己，无论如何，挨两个月就好了，就可以休息了。

爸爸说过，只要设定一个目标，不要去想能不能够达到，

因为有了目标，自己自然的就会向着那个方向走。

就算到不到目的地，至少自己的脚曾走过这条路，

总好过没方向的飘，没目标，就好像在大海中央飘来飘去，不知道要去哪。

人说讲到未必做到，其实我也是靠口讲而已，至于做不做到，就靠自己的手了;

只希望能够得到朋友的支持还有自己的意志力够强。

birthday

2010-09-22T12:07:00.001+08:00

writing a birthday diary:

firstly i really feel happy because i get alot wishes from friends especially from facebook, although i know 90% of them get the information from the facebook b’day reminder.. but nvm, i still feel happy and i did reply everyone~~ thx again

2nd i received a present from Kaven, a form 2 boy who always treat me as a sister during my working life for 3 months… he gave me a small bottle of stars, with a message inside. hav to thx to his cousin tiffany, because she did wish me too~~

3rd is i feel quite happy upon what my family gave me, last weekend we went and eat seafood in a restaurant, is quite popular and quite near my staying area. mommy bought me one dress with a scarf, pink + white dress with a black and white wif grey scarf. daddy gave me one angpao… and sis plan to buy me the shoe that i wish to have since 2 months ago.

4th is i would like to thx my dear alot, although i still dunno what is going to happen on thursday, but i really thx her for planning everything just to make me happy. THX ALOT IN AVANCED… waiting for the day coming too…

good sign

2010-09-19T03:26:00.001+08:00

finally my computer can read chinese words dy…

is this a good sign where my luck is going to change from today??

hehehe… hopefully luu…

don’t wish to get bad luck during my birthday week…

btw, next week is my last week of working…

going to miss the students alot…

i can even remember their names now…

will definitely go back and work during sem break…

ok, have to sleep… nite..

mooncake

2010-09-17T01:29:00.001+08:00

is funny where i was born on the day before mooncake festival and i don’t like to eat mooncake…

mom always complaint to me where that time after give birth, she was not allowed to eat mooncake on the next day, and now i don’t like to eat mooncake, so i give her chance to eat more… XD

anyway, this year my chinese birthday ans western birthday falls on the same dat… 21st sep, and also day before mooncake festival (8/14)… hehe… but yet same as usual, no big celebration… >< and i still need to go work.. hahaha…

pray

2010-09-03T13:37:00.001+08:00

i don’t know what to blog,

but all i feel is i miss someone a lot~

hope she can able to do well in her exam…

~~pray for her in her exam~~

<3 dear dear <3

sorry bloggy

2010-08-29T14:28:00.001+08:00

sry for not updating you recently…

*sek fan <3

anyway, recently i went to Kuantan

stay at a resort near the beach…

~(views from our room’s balcony)~

my very main purpose to there is to take picture of sunset and sunrise. ^^

too bad the sun set at another side so first purpose failed

but i woke up around 6 smtg in the morning and although the sunrise wasn’t exactly above the sea but yet i took some nice pictures of it… here is it:

~the sun waking up~

~love this pic alot~

~blink blink~

~the beach~

~its consider as private beach so its kinda small~

Although the beach look empty, but actually i stare at it from the time where i reach the resort till the time we check out. From afternoon till evening, from evening till midnight, from morning till afternoon.

Talk about the resort, there is a pool. i went swimming in the afternoon and took some picture of it and also me myself~~ ^^

~Children pool with slide, adult pool is behind it~

~adult pool~

~me with my new swim suit~

Oh yea, during the journey to Kuantan, when i was waiting for another family to reach the rest house along the highway, i took few picture of a bird *a common bird, but i found taken animals pictures is really testing my patience.. hahaha… nearly gave up during that time… here are some of the pictures:

♥很有感情的歌♥

2010-07-30T12:47:00.002+08:00

文音把歌唱出感情, 唱出感觉

很感动

也让自己想起了过去

♥雨过天晴♥

2010-07-25T00:30:00.001+08:00

疯狂了一夜

今天的心情平淡的

就像今天的天空一样

没云无雨不阴微风

心中

没爱无恨不烦恼

用微笑带过一切

拿着相机

拍出自己喜欢的风景

戴着耳机

听着自己喜欢的歌

脑海中

一片空白

♥First day being a teacher♥

2010-06-29T03:10:00.001+08:00

have you ever seen this kind of scenario? whereby a form 2 boy studying form 6 standard of maths teaching a standard one boy who studying form 2 standard of maths?? btw, i cant imagine n believe it until today, which is my first day of being a teacher in KUMON centre… maybe becoz of i am born to be good in mixing wif kids… seriously i enjoy the time over there… listen to their stories, and the way they help each other, and all of them are so cute~~~ omg… btw, i like kids alot la… let me talk about wad happen today:

today is my 2nd time visit this centre, where except the main instructor, i do not know anyone at there… after dat i was being intro to few staffs and learn to be a maker… at first it was quite boring but after few hours, some kids started to ask me questions on myself… then they started to talk to me while i am marking their worksheets… haa.. what a sudden, i started to mix wif few kids and they are quite hyper attitude and they are very polite too, feel quite gud when they call me teacher… XD anyway, today was juz my first day.. hopefully it can go smoothly for this 2 months… ^^

♥the end♥

2010-06-11T03:37:00.002+08:00

things finally come to an end

maybe this has change my personality since it happened 2 years ago, not sure whether is a gud thing or not but at least i have to thx him becoz coz of this, i had become stronger (according to theresa) XD

is too late to feel guilty and sorry,

再多的抱歉也不能够挽留什麽
连最后一句再见都不必说

wad you have done by ur own decision, has change your own life and mine too… the consequences should share by both of us, and yet in the previous years, i suffer my own… but nvm, becoz of this, maybe i grew more mature compare to you…

maybe now is your turn to think clear about it… excuses is not goin to help anyone… wad you have done, wad had happened, is not goin to change… to accept this incident, is not easy…

my decison of not putting any hope on you is proven to be true and right… btw, maybe you can say i am trying to revenge, but the truth is, maybe now is the time for you to suffer the consequences of being not fair to me…

♥cute & funny dance♥

2010-06-04T14:57:00.002+08:00

i really like this video, make me crazy while watching the guys dance this song… XD

♥偶像剧♥

2010-05-22T12:25:00.002+08:00

最近迷上了看台湾偶像剧，

整个假期，看了5套戏了：

霹雳MIT, 下一站幸福，终极一班，终极一家，终极三国

还蛮不错的啦，超爱戏剧里的演员了，例如飞轮海，强辩乐团，东城卫，陈乃荣，我爱黑涩会妹妹-鬼鬼，还有其他演员。

自己开始崇拜很多台湾艺人了，也开始发一下蛮无聊的梦了，哈哈。

觉得发白日梦，也不是一件坏事，虽然在别人眼中，觉得自己很傻，很白痴；但只要我自己觉得能放松自己，令自己开心一点的话，又有什么问题呢？我又不是爱上明星们，只是欣赏而已吗。而我自己也不是一个超级忠心疯狂粉丝，哈哈，有何问题呢？

每次看完一部戏，就爱上了戏剧里的歌，也寻找了很多钢琴谱，但也有很多歌找不到钢琴谱，例如终极三国够爱，小心愿，召唤兽，短歌行，以战之战，泪了。。。

♥丁当 - 我爱他♥

2010-05-10T03:00:00.002+08:00

丁当 - 我爱他

作词：黄婷作曲：陈威全

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

this song really make me feel heartache

but anyway, the lyrics remind me of something,

that is time to solve this problem;

a problem which stays with me almost 2 years…

♥great friends♥

2010-05-02T20:38:00.002+08:00

friends that support me from the very beginning till the end

friends that hold me on when i fall

friends that lend me shoulder to cry on

friends that comfort me when i sad

friends that share my happy things with me

friends that feel glad on my success

friends that laugh with me when i’m happy

friends that always stay beside me when i need them

friends that take care of me when i’m sick

friends that scold me when i have mistakes

although i don’t have much of these friends

but i had found some that be a bunch of awesome friends…

just want to say i love you…

♥random♥

2010-04-23T00:30:00.002+08:00

seriously i don’t know what to write in my blog…

hmmm

currently having holidays,

juz chatting around with friends…

with jokes and nonsense things..

hahaha

anyway, smtg make me kinda fun of doing it

hmm, P n C

not goin to tell now,

but i really enjoy doin it,

*dun think too much okie*

hahaha…

nowadays me myself become more evil,

treat someone very evil, muahahahaha

don’t care la, cause of ntg to do…

results coming out next week,

if i failed, i wont start my degree so early, coz retake subjects

if i passed, i also wont start my degree so early, coz wan lazy

hahahaha

anyhow, i will start my degree around oct

hope can same wif chee mei,

she is my very best tuition classmate ever..

hahaha, both super siao one, can laugh over anything and everything…

plan to make cards if i no need retake fail subjects

maybe will sell it, still not sure (planning with friends: cheng yee and dear dear who selling stuffs on9 too)

btw, me had hair cut ytd, new hairstyle, new look, someone say look mature… ==||| anyway, here is some edited photo…

taa daa… i like it alot la anyway… XD

k la, will update tmr, hope i wont be lazy and keep updating my blog everyday… talk about ppl tmr… hehe.. nite nite

♥hurt♥

2010-04-11T00:11:00.002+08:00

being hurt,

i am sure everyone try dat b4

wad u wish when u feel hurt or sad?

human will wish dat someone will be there for u

people will wish dat someone could understand u

i’m a human being,

i hav the rights to be upset,

but y i dun hav the chance to be fulfill wif the 2 statements above?

y muz i start everything n ends everything by myself

without any concerns and comfort?

tough is juz the cover of myself,

y cant people look inside me

and try to understand if they r in the situation…

if really wan to concern about someone,

do it wif ur heart

do it sincerely…

y always find me when hav problems

n y cant i find others when i face problems…

sleepy but couldn’t sleep

feel like crying out but couldn’t…

suffering~~~

♥me♥

2010-04-08T00:47:00.001+08:00

what i suppose to do,

what i need to do,

what i have to do,

i have tell myself,

i had done my very best.

without regrets,

no matter what is the result is…

since i cant change the result,

so i leave it to my heart to accept it slowly

where it needs time and supports…

Pinz dear, Cheng yee, Theresa and Tze yang

i really do not know how to say thanks to you 4 people,

always there for me no matter what.

After finals, must date you all out one day. XD

Foundation first semester,

2 of you came into my life,

third semester, another 2 walk into my life…

in one year, i get 4 very best friends…

that’s a profit for me already. XD

Theresa, i understand what you have told me,

but maybe i still need some time to sit on the spot

where i fall deeply, to think about it…

But i know that,

all of you will pause your journey and

wait for me to stand up and continue.

you are right,

i’m still me, what for need to care for others.

i had learned to be nice to those who be nice to me,

what for being an angel in this cruel reality.

time will let me become me,

as the normal (abnormal) me… hahaha…

♥chances♥

2010-04-02T07:59:00.001+08:00

quote of the day,

“grab the chance if you do not wish to regret in the future”

this chance is not to identify

winning of losing;

is not about how strong you can cope

with the consequences';

is about how can you able to take the chance,

and do something to it.

as long as you have tried your very best against this,

tell yourself,

YOU HAVE NO REGRET

no matter you failed or success.

grab your own chances, and try to win yourself but not others.

at last, you will tend to be proud of yourself because of this.

So, go ahead if you think you are right,

do it if you want to get the thing you want,

take action if you do not want to get regret in the future.

♥ending♥

2010-03-28T18:12:00.002+08:00

3rd semester is going to put a full stop adi…

left few more weeks to go,

wed business presentation

thurs macro presentation

then finals jor…

but then now sick adi…

flu, cough, sorethroat, headache…

my god…

dun fever plz..

i will die if sick in the finals…

adi tried once b4…

dowan 2nd time adi..

promise ppl adi help her make card,

but also no time to make…

maybe tonight make lo…

faster make adi gao tim then giv her…

haih, sien…

♥最熟悉的陌生人♥

2010-03-19T02:45:00.001+08:00

爱情就像舞会

教会你最初的舞步

未必能陪你走到散场。。。

爱情就像听音乐

遇到好听的就会陶醉其中

单曲重播，一秒都不想停下来。。。

而如今只能随机播放

等待下一首能让我心动的旋律。。。

等待

记得我曾经对他说等你是件幸福的事

可是有时候无结局的等待让人心碎。。。

这世界上最累得事莫过于眼睁睁看着自己的心碎了

还得自己动手把它粘回原型

我不等了因为我学会放手。。。

放手

你很伤心的对我说我不爱你了。。。

可是你不知道让你飞翔是我爱你的方式。。。

我的眼泪落在你看不到的角落。。。

于是我们的距离就像一起看日落的影子拉长了。。。

曾经尝试逃出你设下的阴影

走了很久才发现原来我还走不出这黑暗的迷宫

偶尔触碰到伤口偶尔也会小声哭泣。。。

我选择逃避用尽美丽的童话来掩盖丑恶的谎言

我催眠自己因为我受不起伤害你以离我而去。

你给我的回忆我都藏在心里。。。

偶尔拿出来重温

很无聊的你的照片存了又删删了又存回。。。

很自私的每一天都要你在我脑海里跑一趟

也很愚蠢的每一天都在你看不到的角落关心你。。。

对你其实我还在意我们可以重来吗？

可以回到过去吗？

可是我很清楚我们的生命线再不会遇到交叉点了。。。

两条不碰面的平行线只能隔着远方看你

终究我们成了彼此的路人甲。。。

分手后不可以做朋友因为彼此伤害过

不可以做敌人因为彼此深爱过

所以我们成了最熟悉的陌生人

想念你的我希望你是幸福的。。

♥lazy♥

2010-03-14T23:39:00.001+08:00

currently very lazy to write blog,

dunno wad to write also,

let’s blog about this week la

hmm,

had a statistical funfair in college

from thursday to sunday…

skip sunday slot coz

go out wif stanley gor,

to celebrate his b’day,

make a card for him,

and also a key chain.

finally able to watch AVATAR

3D some more

plus premium class…

wakakakaka..

damn nice ler the movie,

then we eat sushi at sushi king

2 ppl end up eat adi 60 bucks..

hahaha..

he pay..

yeah,

then go back lo,

leg quite pain n tired,

coz wearing high heals,

n walk alone for almost 2 hours,

bought a necklace and some accessories for myself.

ya lo..

dats de week…

ntg much happen…

♥♥Gopeng Earth Camp♥♥

2010-03-10T11:51:00.007+08:00

let’s start blog about the camp we went on last friday which is 5/3 to 7/3, held at Gopeng, called earth camp…

5/3 friday:

we begins our journey around 2pm in HELP, ok long story cut short, quite boring in the bus, coz we dun really noe each other and didn’t really talk much… took some pic of the scenery also la… XD

reach there about 6pm, get ourselves ready in the camp, n played some mini games… not bad, coz we manage to solve the task given, and hav a sweating section where we played mini games around 20 mins, minigames include: follow commands, and clock on the tower, but get face painted too… then started to rain, so we had our bath “cold water, dark toilet room + raining” come out all wet, juz same as didn’t bath… hahahahaha…. took some pic in the camp place

then had dinner, and quite a long briefing after dat… formed our group, our group name “bubu”, sounds familiar rite??? hahaha… see the top of my blog then u’ll noe la… there is 2 more groups called amy jack and bob… this 3 names is called as our missing person in the group, which means we hav to find our weakness n correct it by drawing a cartoon person on a paper, and named it… all we hav to do is to be n so called “find” the missing person in the group… we target our bubu muz be love others, release tension, relax, get more communication, talkative, and to be strong…

at night, the girls couldn’t sleep, so quite noisy la… hehe… sry la guys… tak boleh tidur ma, mai talk lo… the guys slept very early… haha… piggy piggy…

6/3 saturday:

5am woke up, get ready adi… about 7am, wake the boys up pulak… swt… hahaha… all piggy… morning hav mini games too, which is chick walking…

today goin to hav 2 activities: caving and white water rafting… transport is a lorry.. hahaha… all looks like illegal workers like dat… water rafting part, we had go across about 7km distance on the river, lead n guide by a girl called ashley... damn fun… go across rapids, listen n follow commands… such as peddle high 5, boom boom, all to the left, peddle forward, backward…. damn damn fun…

nearly 2pm after had lunch, we went to the Gua Kandu for caving lead n guide by kak iem… b4 dat, we played ASOKA and some kind of puzzle game using rope…. in a place where is dark n u r not familiar to wif only 2 candles, u learn to believe n rely on the person who lend u a hand, n learn to help others although u do not noe them well… feel very safe wif the hand holding me all the time who is my team 1st leader tze siang, me is the 2nd leader so i was holding a girl’s hand inside the cave… feel touch n warm n also very proud n happy coz of what i saw n feel, our group, and also others group, we learn to help each other in such situation… good job ppl… n we did cut the 2nd group line and get the 2nd place…. yippy… 2 hours inside the cave, learn many things indirectly…

at night, super tired, but talk wif fren till 1 something only sleep…

7/3 sunday:

morning 7am only wake up, body ache, same thing, eat breakfast at 7:30am.

then we ride on the same lorry, went to the high rope course… i was very worried about it since the night b4… when we reach there, saw all the ropes n cables hanging… leg started to cram adi… really very scary.. the crews started to giv us play mini games… games commands include: coconut tree, charlie angle, toilet, elephant, reload energy dat hav to make sounds like reload bullet and pass energy to other ppl…. it was damnnnnn funny, all laugh till tears come out… hahahahahahha….. really very very fun… the game purpose is to let us calm down ourselves… kak iem was also there… hehehe…

1st section, guide n lead by one of the crew, Shaun... he saw me very very worried and he did lend me a hand when i take my first step on the cable… first step is the hardest step ever… n i did quite ok at dat section…

2nd section is the hardest one, lead n guide by apek and japang… at the beginning, i cant even dare to imagine i was at up there, but when it comes to my turn, i went up the ladder, step by step, legs started to shake as well… up to the 2/3 of the ladder, u will begin to think of, since is adi so high up, juz go only la… on the top, there’s one point, i cant manage to get through, n erm, i did cry on top there… although there is pain, scare and fail in the whole journey of the challenge, but i still manage to complete it through the skate board, and flying fox… while doin the flying fox, dat moment, is the moment where my mind is totally blank n only full of enjoy, fun and happy… without any stress, sad, or tired… feel proud not only to myself, but also all other frenz which go through at least 2 sections of the 3 high rope courses… good job ppl!!! clap clap…

after i finish the hardest section, alot of ppl cried coz too happy and we really DID COMPLETE IT!!!!!! dat moment is unforgettable moment in my life i swear!!!! get supports from frenz in the whole journey, push myself to the limit to complete the challenges explore to gain experiences… love all of u alotttttt… including my group members, other groups members, lecturer ms ida and mr ira, the crew: cindy, apek, iem, capang, shaun, ashley and others who didn’t be my group’s guide… muackkk…. took some pic on the way back to the earth camp:

we get up the bus around 3pm, and finally we say goodbye to the crews and the camp… how i wish to stay there for longer… miss the camp alot, n wish to go back again…

throughout the whole camp, although it only last for 3 days, although we all hav body ache afterwards… but it is the most memorable and precious moment i had so far… couldn’t and wouldn’t forget every single thing happen in the camp… to those who didn’t go, u will regret… nvm, since is ur choice, it doesn’t affect me also… wakakakakaka…. in the bus on the way goin back college, everyone did rest, get alot of cool sleeping pics also… dun worry la.. all look very cool… hahahaha…. will tag ppl but if u dun wish to be tagged then juz remove the tag la okie… ^^

♥爱与被爱♥

2010-03-02T07:46:00.001+08:00

人人都说：

女生要懂得如何被爱。

其实不但是女生

希望有一位王子

疼爱她们，

给与她们幸福的日子；

这个我赞同，

但也有另一个想法，

也就是，

女生也要懂得如何去爱

她心中的王子。

我相信，

男孩的心

其实也有脆弱的一面

这颗用来爱女孩的心，

也许要被爱，

被在乎，

以及被保护的。

每个人都渴望，

有一个能够真心真意

无条件的爱他们，

无论男女都好。

所以呢，

如果真得找到一位爱自己的人，

就要珍惜他，

不要等到对方放弃了，

或离开了自己

才后悔

当初没留着他的心灵。

♥第一步♥

2010-03-01T08:44:00.001+08:00

相信

凡事的第一步

都是最难走的吧。

爱情之路上，

最重要的，

就是要过到自己

心里的那一关，

愿意去爱或被爱。

其实无论是爱或被爱

也能很幸福的。

爱情的过程，

是由两个真心相爱的人，

去走出来的，

两个人一起创造

美好的回忆，

就算这段感情，

有结束的一天，

都让双方在未来的日子

都不会感到后悔，

后悔当初为什么没好好爱对方。

一些都已成过去，

在后悔也以没用，

就算自己再多爱对方，

就算自己再多不舍得对方，

过去的爱情，

是不会再回来的。

爱一个人不一定要拥有他，

但

拥有一个人的时候，

就要好好的爱对方，

珍惜对方，

努力的为双方，

拥有着幸福甜蜜的日子，

创造开心的时光，

当往后想起时，

都会微笑着回味，

不后悔自己爱过这个人。

一个曾经爱过自己，

疼过自己的人。

-恩-

♥mid term♥

2010-02-18T22:55:00.002+08:00

long time din update my bloggy adi...

dun hav the mood to blog recently...

during cny,

as normal la...

go back hometown,

open house...

gamble... (break even)

lol...

saturday mid term...

sien...

no mood to study...

haih..

will upload some photo after mid term...

about those new dresses i bought for cny...

after mid term still hav assignments due date...

die faster..

k la...

study awhile then sleep le..

nite nite..

♥happy cny & valentines♥

2010-02-14T02:42:00.001+08:00

last year de cny,

i din celebrate…

coz masuk hospital…

dengue fever…

haih…

this year de cny

the first thing i hope

is i can be healthy,

second,

i would love to pray for all my besties

include,

my lovely dear dear pinz,

my dearest darling yiu chern, mabel, jessie,

my dearest brother stanley gor,

my best girl frenz theresa, shin chieh, cwen…

my best boy frenz yong keat sifu, jing kai si gong, marcus x2…

my new frenz in my 3rd semester bryant, ken ken, jessie, ron, ys junior, kwai yean…

wish u all happy, healthy and for girls, stay pretty, for guys stay handsome always & forever…

love u all becoz u guys meant alot to me…

once again,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR………..

and for dear pinz and those who are couple…

HAPPY VALENTINE…

♥busy♥

2010-02-10T01:23:00.001+08:00

very busy recently ler,

din update blog for few days le…

coz although write everyday,

also same thing de..

assignments, presentations…

mid terms…

homework…

dunno how to rush everything…

hopefully group members all guai guai la

if all do work sure very fast can finish de…

thursday presentation…

hmm…

kinda scare,

stage fright very serious…

hahahaha…

cannot speak in front of the public one…

so i do the graph interpretation part…

no need face audience ma…

no la,

juz becoz i do dat part so i present dat section lu…

nowadays also very late sleep…

hav to finish moral interpretation only can sleep…

k la,

hav to continue do work le…

bye..

♥代价♥

2010-02-05T00:41:00.001+08:00

任何事，都得付出代价。

当你得到一样东西，

付出的代价

就是失去一样东西。

而这些都不轮到自己做决定

自己没得选，

没得说不能，

没得反对，

甚至没得说不舍得。

不公平，

不甘心，

不喜欢，

不服气，

可是也得失去，

放手，

看着它离开自己，

再也不属于自己，

再也不会回来，

事情不会再重复，

全部也成过去。

♥quizzes♥

2010-01-29T01:17:00.001+08:00

this 2 days quiz…

business and macroecon…

next week start fighting

for assignments and presentations…

then mid term…

oh gosh…

haiz…

wad to do…

life is about challenges,

experiences, and memories…

that makes us grow up,

accept challenges,

get experiences,

keep memories…

btw,

i need sleep now..

haha…

today kinda happy~~

♥路过的人♥

2010-01-28T00:12:00.002+08:00

在每个人的心里

仿佛好像一条街,

人来人往,

这些人包括了

路过的人,

他们只是经过这条街而已,

也有的人, 他来到这里,

也住在里面了一段时间;

甚至也有的已经离开了,

去了别方...

可是无论如何,

他们留下了许多脚印...

也代表了他们每一个人,

都各自留下了回忆给自己...

无论这些回忆是开心的或不愉快的,

全部都是无价的...

♥lose patience♥

2010-01-26T01:41:00.002+08:00

i had adi warn many times...

could you all plz respect others' feelings??

i'm not a toy,

not use for play or fool...

plz respect others and also urself...

ergh..

damn it...

i was doin my research,

then some idiot come n kacau...

damn freaking no mood...

erghh...

need sleep!!!!!

♥bottom of the heart♥

2010-01-21T23:20:00.003+08:00

哭，并不代表我屈服；　

退一步，并不象征我认输；

放手，并不表示我放弃；

微笑，并不意味我快乐！

sometimes, the appearance or emotion on a person's face,

doesn't means his/her heart feels the same way,

similar to, sometimes we do something,

it has the another side of way of thinking...

maybe others will think of the surface of the decision we made;

but the deeper meaning that lay under the bottom of the heart is different...

nobody would even understand what others had suffered from anything thats hurt...

how was their feelings,

we wouldn't know...

even when the person speak out,

it doesn't mean he/she is telling the exactly feeling inside themselves...

even though when there is a same scenario happens in other's life....

every single of painfulness only can be know and clear by our own self..

♥reset♥

2010-01-20T23:32:00.002+08:00

tonight goin to reset my sleeping time...

i really beh tahan adi..

every night also 2 - 3am only sleep...

haiz..

for weeks..

everyday headache...

hopefully tonight will works la..

gud nite ppl~~

♥dunno how♥

2010-01-18T02:14:00.002+08:00

today wake up at 1pm...

long time din sleep for 12 hours adi...

then went out,

buy things...

after dat went to grandma house...

visit grandparents...

then 5 smtg reach home...

on9...

damn sien...

btw,

this few days,

i join one group in fb

is all about single life...

n recently,

i love creating sad love quotes...

walao..

those i copy n paste from somewhere

no ppl like...

but those i create myself,

all click like..

haha...

too emo adi i think,

n me myself also emo ma...

aiya...

can think of one in a short time...

n i did read back my blog...

i cant imagine dat all those story

written by me..

haha...

damn emo..

nvm la...

i memang emo kaki...

if not also wont create emo club in fb...

this 2 days no mood to blog...

so i juz simply write,

maybe few days after only blog smtg meaningful ler...

but sure is sad sad de...

in college,

i hav one fren,

i really dunno how to help him...

feel so sad n worry when read his blog...

hope i can do smtg...

but seems like ntg i can do...

so sry to tell dat...

but i'll promise,

i will always be there for u fren...

u are consider as one of my very best fren

in college,

and also in my life...

u taught me many things..

if i dun hav u in my life,

i wont think things till do deeply,

i will only look at the surface...

i do hope i could help u...

plz let us help u...

i noe u need caring n love now...

k la,

wan sleep le...

nite nite

♥sis 21st b'day♥

2010-01-17T23:21:00.002+08:00

today is 16th jan,

we are celebrating sis 21st b'day,

although her b'day is tmr...

hmm...

busy for whole day adi...

very tired,

while busy dat time,

i didn't think anything other than de party...

but when everything settle adi...

once i sit down,

and no sound or voice around me,

my mind full of him...

walao...

si beh tahan...

damn emo...

then 2am only can sleep...

trying to reset my time of sleeping...

if continue like this

really cannot stand...

seriously...

i'm gonna become crazy~~

♥矛盾♥

2010-01-15T02:48:00.002+08:00

这几天都失眠,

没到两三点都无法入睡,

早上6点就要起床了,

所以每天都觉得辛苦的.

说真的,

要我忘记他,

我需要很长的时间.

要怪就怪自己

用情太深了.

无法自拔.

有一刹那,

很想把他所有能联络的方法洗去.

msn, facebook, 甚至电话...

可是,

不舍得,

真得很不舍得,

更不想这么做...

很矛盾,

不知该如何...

好了,

3:30 早上了,

一定要逼自己睡觉了...

还好明天数学节...

要不然真得很难熬哦...

♥friends forever♥

2010-01-13T00:30:00.003+08:00

today i edited one pic...

by combining few of my photo

and dear pinz photo together...

created a quote for both of us too...

thx to cwen for the idea...

i love this pic a lot...

thx dear dear for giving me a chance to noe u...

muack..

luv ya...

♥过去♥

2010-01-10T22:40:00.005+08:00

失去对方过后，

留下的可能

只是一张照片；

所谓一张照片
能说千言万语，

看着自己照片里

的微笑，

却让现实生活中

的自己流泪。

在这一刻，

才发觉，

一切都已成了

过去，

再也不会

重来。

~淑恩 {bubu}~

♥crazy day♥

2010-01-07T23:03:00.004+08:00

this morning,

me n one gang of frenz...

siao adi..

laugh non stop

coz of 2 jokers..

haha...

then they suddenly say skip class,

went watch movie...

watch avatar some more...

i also haven't watch

but i din skip class,

so i din follow them...

then today stay in college,

pinky laptop lao gei..

haiz...

dunno wad happen to it also..

sien..

then i seach for some

friendship love quotes...

then i found one,

which match wif the words

dat hide inside myself

but i couldn't express it out...

We all want to fall in love.

Why? Because that experience

makes us feel completely alive.

Where every sense is heightened,

every emotion is magnified,

our everyday reality is shattered

and we are flying into the heavens.

It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon.

But that doesn't diminish its value.

Because we are left with memories

that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

all i wish to hav,

is juz memories...

i noe things doesn't stays

n belongs to us forever...

but

i cant even get a chance

to gain love memories

between me n him...

but anyway,

at least

we gain friendship memories ler...

btw,

i dunno y

today my tummy damn painful..

='(

aiks...

maybe eat wrong things ler...

k ler,

not feeling well,

wan oioi..

nite nite

♥开心 vs 不开心♥

2010-01-06T22:17:00.004+08:00

先跟 bibi 说声生日快乐,

希望你永远都开心和幸福。

我自问自己给不到

你幸福快乐的日子，

我为又能做的，

就只是放手吧，

和我会每天诚心

的为你祈祷。

希望上天会保佑你。

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

先说不开心的事吧，

今天miki跟我说了很多东西，

提醒了我：机会是自己创造出来的

如果选择等待机会的出现，

都不知道要等多久。

不如自己创造不是更好吗？

可是在自己还没踏出第一步时，

就给拒绝了。

可能是我一直以来都看不开，

所以才会令到自己变成这样，

bibi.. 我不是故意的。

请你原谅我。

我保证没有下一次。

可你也不用对我那么冷吧？

就算是普通朋友，

也不需那么酷咯。

怎么说，

我们也曾经是很好的朋友啊。

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

说回开心的事，

真得令我很开心的

就是我最好的朋友

复合了啦。。

dear dear,

我们真的心有灵犀哦。

哈哈，

当我发了一个e-card给你,

你还没看，

我就收到你的信息了。

真的想不到，

当我想跟你说话时，

你也同时主动找我了。

真开心~~

这两件事，

好像有关联那样的，

突然发觉，

是不是要得到一样东西，

就要失去一些东西呢？

和相反的，

当有了一样自己想要的，

同时也失去一些很值得保留的事。

我不知道，

如果能选，

我希望两样都能拥有。

跟dear dear的友谊，

我这一辈子都不会忘记。

♥傻傻的我♥

2010-01-05T01:16:00.004+08:00

有时为了掩饰自己，
在别人面前，
说一些话，
或答应一些东西，
可自己是却不想做的
就好比如，
听着自己爱的人，
希望我会放弃他，
也期望我会找更多的机会时，
我却说，
好，我不会再爱他，
甚至说一些让对方
能心安的话。
可自己却放不下，
更不想放下。
好想让对方知道，
我会一直等待着他。
这一切的决定，

在别人眼中，

是件傻事。

可往往当人堕入爱河之中，

就会做很多傻事，

可别当他们自己没发觉，

只是自己不肯承认，

有时候，

就连自己的心已经有了答案，

却假装不知道，

继续等待着一个，

能令她满意的答案。

事实永远就是残忍的，

可自己却不敢去面对，

怕受伤，

怕心疼，

怕失去自己爱的人；

所以就变成了

缩头乌龟。

人可能真的是犯贱的吧，

当跟他说不要时，

他偏要，

和相反的。

喜欢耍性格，

高傲。

叹气~~

今天在学校，

逼自己玩的疯狂，

真得很疯癫。

一直打桌球

打到手受伤了，

还要继续打。

很想把全部不开心的事，

发泄完出来，

身边很多朋友，

更糟糕，

全部不是继续单身，

就是分手，

包括自己。

2009 对我们来说，

充满了桃花劫，

而不是桃花运。

很可怜。

突然好渴望爱情，

很想过着情侣般的生活。

有时候，

会甚至觉得

开心和幸福，

给不到自己安全感，

他们就好像游客，

只停留在心里几天，

然后就离我而去~~~

♥心里的悄悄话♥

2010-01-05T00:45:00.005+08:00

今天看了别人的部落格，
不知道为什么，
竟然觉得他们很不同。
有些人的blog，
有点好像我的一样，
都是关于每日说发生的事情，
可我自己偏偏有时
会写一些心底话，
一些藏在自己心里的一个角落
很少跟朋友说的话。
我会写在这里，
也可能是因为，
没有谁会看我的部落格的，
除了几位朋友，
他们看了，
有时会留信息给我，
谢谢你们，
那么关心我。
很多人都把我看得很坚强，
以为没事难得到我，
可这一切，
我想都是假象吧。
我也不知道，
为什么要藏着自己
真正的一面，
也许
是想保护自己吧。
可是有时真的撑到很辛苦，
当自己快要崩溃的时候，
就连哭，
也不会哭出声的，
只有躲在被里，
可以说是偷哭吧。
觉得自己很没用，
叹气~~
可能自己的确是没用的吧。。。
没心情继续写了，
明天第一天开课，
要睡了。
明天再继续写吧。
晚安。。。

♥happy day♥

2010-01-04T01:24:00.004+08:00

today is a special day for me...

thx bibi... ^^

hope bibi also feel happy,

coz today also consider as

celebrate ur b'day in advanced...

this is the card i made for bibi...

hope u really like it...

sry dat i cant attend ur b'day party

on ur b'day...

>.<

today really very happy lu...

hehe..

watch movie

alvin & the chipmunks

so damn cute..

all those puppy faces...

omg...

hahaha...

then went eat tepanyaki...

bump into sai yung...

swt...

za dou...

i did bought a book at popular too..

will blog about it after i read it...

dunno y i so random

suddenly buy this kind de book

maybe i'm getting too emo adi...

need this kind of book,

to make me smile to face my life...

then juz now came back home dat time,

walk in the rain...

swt...

then juz now headache...

aiks...

but one thing, even myself

feel i'm not ok

is, erm...

i dunno y i can sit on the floor

in the bathroom

while bathing

for nearly 20mins...

erm...

sounds like i'm crazy adi...

oh dear...

i dunno why am i doin dat either...

then at night,

chat wif one new fren...

very nice person...

btw,

tuesday gonna start my 3rd sem...

promise bibi adi will study well...

hmmm...

i try my best lar...

hopefully bibi also can get gud result

in his next semester...

gud luck n all the best to u bibi...

is time to oioi le

nite nite

♥new beginning♥

2010-01-02T02:35:00.001+08:00

new year,

new life,

new beginning,

new me...

hahaha...

hopefully this year will be

a happy year for me la...

dun wish to get emo

most of the time jor...

used to get emo often,

then always think back de past,

i had keep these memories

in a corner inside my heart,

when emo,

then 'take out' and think

repeatedly de same thing,

den i realize,

everytime i concentrate on the mind,

the way i look at the same thing

differently...

this is wad we call

"think too much "

hahaha...

btw,

for me is gud la,

coz i will see myself as a silly girl

sometimes..

hehe...

then i will start laugh and smile...

sounds scary rite...

haha..

ya, i memang like to talk to myself one...

my hobby...

i think my is under serious condition adi

haha...

but in the past few weeks,

i have meet one new fren,

he brings me happy n warm day...

thx bibi...

but also not only he geh...

haha...

in college,

i hav meet many new frens too,

who really stay beside me

when i need them...

feel so touching...

wuwu,

wan cry jor...

hahahaha...

especially theresa, melanie & shin chieh...

u this 3 girls...

memang superwomen...

tough girl...

always brain wash me...

hahaha...

k la,

goin out gai gai tmr wif bibi...

gonna celebrate his b'day tmr...

since i cant celebrate wif him

on the actual day...

prepared present adi...

tmr only post pic la...

nite nite...

♥2010♥

2010-01-01T01:58:00.005+08:00

first of all,

my first post for the year 2010...

wish everyone have a happy new year...

new year,

new life,

new beginning...

hope i can hav a happy year...

looking back the year 2009,

many memories have been made,

not only made by myself,

but also ppl around me...

juz now,

i hav edit a pic...

by combining few of my frens

which brought me

wonderful memories in the year 2009...

they not only gave me wonderful memories,

but they change me too...

becoz of their appearance in my life,

i have learn many things,

learn to play, ^^

learn to appreciate,

learn to grow up,

learn to face problems,

lastly, they taught me how to love...

i feel very thankful to u all,

becoz u guys very support me

from wad i wish,

from wad i do,

throughout the year,

everyone of u,

had accompany me when i need u all...

listen to me,

support me,

talk to me...

thx for being there when i need u all,

i feel glad to hav u guys as my fren...

u all mean a lot to me...

hope everyone of u

will stay beside me

and be my fren forever...

love u guys alot...

muackssss...

♥bubu & bibi♥

2009-12-31T01:19:00.000+08:00

这两个名字

我永远都不会忘记。

为什么？

是因为他带给我

不少快乐甜蜜的时光。

我们之间的故事

对于我来说

是充满了意义。

虽然眼泪曾流过，

心曾痛过，

可是微笑和开心

也已经带进了。

bibi，

我很感谢你，

谢谢你给了我

认识你的机会

u mean a lot to me...

*wink

thx for everything u hav gave to me...

我更感谢你对我的坦白

虽然我们已失去了

在一起的机会

可我相信，

还有一个机会等着我们

就是能够成为好朋友。

最后我想感谢你的是，

谢谢你给了我爱你的机会，

我从来没后悔过，

爱上你，是一件很快乐的事。

看着你那么坚持

的继续你对她的爱。

我更不忍心去抢逼你，

我唯有能做的

就是支持你，

我以为自己会恨你，

可我并没有，

我只是很羡慕她，

因为她身边，

有一个守护天使，

在守护着她，

爱着她，

保护着她。

我没这个福气，

能去享受你这份爱意，

可以做你的情人，

是一件很幸福的事，

可是，能够成为你的好朋友，

更是一件很开心的事。

bibi,

from now on,

no matter wad u wan to do,

or wad's ur decision,

bubu will always support u,

this is my promise to u...

no expiry date for this...

hahaha...

but under one condition,

promise wont be activate if related to crimes...

wakakaka...

oh ya,

bibi...

keep ur promise too ya..

kekeke...

i hav super weapon to attack u one ar,

if u naughty...

hahaha...

bleh.. =p

♥moodless♥

2009-12-30T02:02:00.004+08:00

today result came out...

all pass...

aiya

din expect getting high score also

pass enough jor le...

today dunno y ler...

mood swing till i wan crazy adi...

sometimes super blur,

then emo,

then hyper,

then mind blank...

haiz...

like dat really

gonna hang myself soon...

bibi, u promise me dat

u will make me smile everyday...

but,

i dun feel happy right now...

aiks...

missing someone badly whole day...

dunno y also...

aiya...

dowan blog jor le...

sien...

bye

♥希望与失望♥

2009-12-28T23:31:00.010+08:00

刚刚读了一位朋友的心声

原来她已把说有的希望，

转化成绝望。

对她来说，

有希望，就会有失望。

她曾希望某些东西会发生，

可偏偏

这样东西不但没发生，

反而另一样事情突发，

是她万万想不到的，

也是她不想发生的；

然而令她不开心，

伤心，

甚至流泪。

很多人告诉过我同样的东西

有希望，就会有失望

没有希望，就会有惊喜

曾经我也放了很多心思，

希望某种事情会发生

可说真的，

我慢慢开始相信这段话，

失望带给我很多不快乐的日子

也令我留下了不少的眼泪。

累了，

不想再撑了，

是这个世界太复杂了吗？

还是自己太单纯，

头脑太简单了。

事实永远都是残忍的，

每当某些事情发生了，

希望就会慢慢的产生，

渐渐的，

开始了解整件事情，

也渐渐的，

明白了事情的经过

结局就跟着来了，

失望也随着来了，

到那个时候，

眼泪也开始掉下了。

在这个时候，

自己就会很迷惘，

要坚持？

还是放弃？

可有时候，

往往会向坚持的路而走，

可偏偏知道自己会很辛苦，

很有可能撑不住。

倒了无数次，

跌倒了，

心伤了，

甚至心碎了。

想到这些，

心就会慢慢的转向放弃的路，

可自己却不想放手，

更放不开，

很想保留着这份情意，

很像继续抱着希望，

虽然希望能领自己得到失望

可没有希望，

自己却不会继续努力，

努力得到自己想要的东西，

可在这个时候，

身边的人就会说，

不是你的，

这一辈子都不是你的，

为什么？

为什么要逼我在坚持和放弃

之间做决定？

我已经快要崩溃了啦。

为什么要对我那么残忍？

曾经有位朋友说，

当事情来到绝望的时候，

记住上帝已经创造了

一个更好的未来给自己。

成人很多时候，

自己太执著，

太固执，

可自己很清楚，

不是因为自己固执，

就可以固执的面对事情。

固执不能拿来做借口。

好像继续成为

你心中的小女孩，

每天笑嘻嘻的

坏蛋的。

可是恐怕自己做不到了，

知道一切都已经

来到了一个分岔路

自己的性格

也随着

事情的改变而改变。

你高估了我，

你以为我能很坚强的

面对我们之间的事，

可事实不是那样的。

对于我们的事，

从一开始，

我已经是很认真的了，

我知道你也一样，

你怪你自己，

你觉得你所做的一切

都是错的。

可我不是那么想，

没有你的出现，

我不会知道

原来真真的开心是这样的，

我每一刻都想着你，

就会觉得很幸福

好像知道

被你宠，

被你爱，

被你疼，

的感觉是如何的。

我相信一定会很幸福的。

可能我没这个福气吧。

一些都只看你的决定,

我能做的，

就只有乖乖的

留在你身边，

当你需要我的时候，

我会陪着你，

我不希望你会和我分享

所有开心的事，

可我希望，

当你不开心的时候，

当你想要找人听你说话时，

你第一个想起的会是我

如果真的要我

在坚持和放弃

之间做选择

可能等待，

是我的选择吧。

我尊重你所有的决定，

我当然也希望，

你会尊重我唯一的决定。

我知道，

也很清楚，

你所做的一切，

都是为我好，

为我着想，

你希望我会开心，

我很谢谢你，

真得很感激你

我知道我不会后悔

不会后悔爱上你，

更不会后悔等待你。

希望我们走的路，

不会在这里说再见，

我很想我们能继续走下去，

也希望你会保留着

我和你之间的情意。

当你真的需要伴的时候，

你第一个想起的，

会是我。

也希望这一天，

不会离开自己太远。

请你放心，

我会尽量让自己过得开心，

会努力读书，

因为我知道，

你会一直支持我。

我也会一样，

会永远支持你，

最后想说的，

是希望你能快点好起来

你已病了好久了，

真的好担心你哦。

一定要好好照顾你自己

对不起哦，

不能在这个时候

留在你身旁

照顾你。

当你说你很想我

能留在你身边时

无可否认，

我真的觉得好甜蜜

我会永远记得

你跟我说过的话。

这些话，

也已经刻在我心里了。

虽然跟你相处的时间不久，

可以竟能不知不觉地爱上你

也爱你得那么深。

连我自己也不能想象。

想到你不会再好像之前那样

每天都找我聊天，

就觉得很不自在。

可我知道，

这些日子很快就会过去。

知道自己在抱着很大的希望，

也很有可能得到这一辈子

最大的失望，

可也有可能

会得到这一辈子最幸福的日子

我不知道以后会发生什么事,

可谓一一样东西就是,

如果我们真的不能在一起,

我知道, 我们这一辈子都能

成为好朋友.

很真心真意得跟你说声

我爱你.

♥melaka♥

2009-12-27T00:42:00.003+08:00

juz now went to grandparents home...

coz grandfather b'day...

then me n cousin sis,

hide inside de room...

take pic...

she wan me become her model...

coz she is selling clothes...

n i too thin adi...

suits to be her model...

haha...

wear many kinds of dress n shirts oh...

will post up pic later...

now very lazy...

haha...

btw,

goin back to melaka tmr morning...

9am...

sien...

cant sleep tonight...

how to wake up so early tmr leh??

sei lar...

aiya

dun care le...

sleep inside de car...

very lazy to go back melaka one ler...

those ppl attitude...

really beh tahan...

luckily monday morning come back...

if not really sien till wan die jor...

wont on9 tmr le...

will miss bibi a lot...

hehe...

hopefully he will get well soon...

coz he sick sick adi...

haiz...

always scold me din take care of myself,

but then ownself sick pulak...

k la...

dunno wad to write le...

tata...

♥christmas♥

2009-12-25T23:47:00.000+08:00

today Christmas...

but i dunno y i feel very lonely...

but luckily still hav bibi chat wif me...

hehe...

i had adi prepare one b'day present

for bibi...

present for me,

is smtg very meaningful...

hopefully he will like it...

无论别人怎样批评我都好，

就算是亲生姐姐

不支持我，

只要我知道自己

在做什么，

就可以了，

我只知道，

我不需要给别人什么交代，

我不想多解释，

别人要怎么说，

就管他的吧。

我们两个人得事，

只有我们自己最清楚。

外人根本最不可能会了解。

好像能快点见到你哦，

我知道你也是这么想的。

好了，

就下到这吧。

晚安。

♥圣诞节快乐♥

2009-12-25T02:00:00.002+08:00

很怕，

害怕自己一直以来

都只是一厢情愿，

自作多情，

可原来不是这样的。

尊重你的决定，

我也知道这些东西，

是不能勉强的。

说真的，

和你认识不久，

就和你这么亲密了

和你一起时，

什么都谈得来，

说实话，

从第一天认识你，

我每一天都过得很开心，

是真的，

其实，

就连我自己

也不懂为什么

我们之间的感情

可以发展的那么快。

你问我，

如果我们之间，

没有发展的机会的话，

我们还能不能

保持朋友的关系。

我不知道我做不做到，

可我更不想失去你，

不想没有你。

这么说都好，

等见面时再说吧。

在这里祝大家圣诞节快乐，

晚安。

♥boring♥

2009-12-24T02:29:00.000+08:00

today really damn boring lo...

bibi also not free to layan me...

only chat for awhile jek...

nvm lar...

aiya...

i also no mood today...

tummy pain like hell like dat...

whole day sleep on the bed din move...

hahaha...

now doin craft again...

hehe...

almost done jor...

but sleepy adi...

haha...

tmr only continue...

k la...

nite nite..

♥feeling sick...♥

2009-12-23T00:38:00.005+08:00

today dunno ystomach naughty

feel like vomiting...

then din really eat much today...

haiz...

this afternoon went to college

to attend the EMC meeting...

kinda sien also...

then 2 smtg,

went one utama,

go walk...

dat time i adi dun feeling well le,

no mood to walk also...

then i saw de penguin i luv...

this one...

the big one

but cost 200 bucks...

walao...

damn exp...

i juz wish to get the smallest one enough le...

Bibi say buy for me wor...

hehe...

so happy...

thx bibi...

k la...

promise bibi will sleep early today...

nite nite...

♥simply happy day♥

2009-12-22T03:20:00.002+08:00

today i was not really in gud mood one...

coz my sis n mum r super annoying...

at last i hav to do all the houseworks...

then when having dinner,

i din even speak a word...

then i too careless jor..

hurt my own finger...

haiz..

but after day,

Arthur which known as my mr siao

haha...

although i only knew him for few days,

but this guy is really a sweet n nice n caring guy...

i feel glad n happy to hav him as my fren...

he accompany me all the time,

especially when i am in bad mood,

he can make me laugh till crazy one...

thx ya...

but he always say me naughty one...

hahaha...

i hope he feel happy when chat wif me also ler...

plan to make 2 b'day presents for him...

really luv this fren a lot...

hehe...

k la,

very late le...

sleeping time...

nite nite..

♥sweet friends♥

2009-12-21T01:20:00.000+08:00

"A lovely star dropped on earth one night,

asked me u want a million dollar or a good friend?

i had 2 choose million dollars coz,

i already have u..."

this is one of the friendship quote i get from the internet...

too sien adi ntg to do...

but saw all the sweet n lovely friendship quotes...

then i juz send to some of my frens lo...

in the past few days...

i actually dun feel gud,

but i feel very lucky,

bcoz i still hav few sweet frens

who are always be there for me...

they chat wif me,

support me...

thx guys...

luv u guys a lot...

♥sick♥

2009-12-20T00:54:00.002+08:00

haiz...

sick jor ler me..

keep on coughing only...

btw, this morning i went back to my old house

to take smtg...

n i eat at the coffee shop

where i always went there n eat

since i was very young...

everyday walk by there one...

miss the food...

k ler...

today also din do much things...

ntg to write...

>.<

paiseh...

nite nite...

♥the end♥

2009-12-19T02:19:00.002+08:00

things can juz disappear or gone in a moment...

hmmm...

but wad i gain is experiences and memories...

although i dun agree of wad u said...

but anyway,

this is de end of the road...

btw...

today kinda sien...

hehe...

but then luckily hav one fren...

sot wif me...

haha...

i did a anniversary card for parents juz now...

will post at FB soon...

k la...

very late le...

wan off le...

bye

♥is time♥

2009-12-18T00:08:00.003+08:00

time to be strong...

i noe i cannot continue to be like this...

lee...

thx for all the words u hav said to me...

i will rmb them forever...

and also to

theresa

melanie

crayon

wendy

jean mui

shin chieh

yiu chern

and robin...

thx for all ur supports...

appreciate to hav u guys

as my very best frens...

at the moment,

when i feel lost...

i get many supports from frens n my sis...

i noe to get through this barrier...

i need to be brave n firm...

hopefully i can get through this successfully...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

for wad i hav done...

wad i had did...

wad i hav decided

i dun feel regret about it...

i dun feel regret on falling in luv to u,

support u always,

be beside u when u need me...

but the needs i wan,

or i wish to get...

u cant giv it to me...

from wad u have said to me,

u're afraid of hurting me,

u r trying to protect me...

but the truth is not wad u said...

u r protecting urself by hurting me...

from wad u did to me...

u r juz creating misunderstanding

and question marks to me...

yes, i admit

i admit dat i do feel happy when be wif u...

no matter is when face to face,

or on the phone...

but to get happiness,

i muz pay for it...

n the price of it is to get sad...

at a particular moment,

i do feel sweet n warm...

but at the same time...

i feel lost,

disappointed,

being hurt...

somehow

i feel i am being toyed...

i am a girl...

all i need is caring n loves...

i am not a toy...

i dun need betrayed,

hurts

or disrespect...

i feel tired,

tired of guessing...

tired of waiting...

maybe wad u need i cant giv u,

but wad i hav gave u

is truly from heart...

i dun care whether is this worthy anot...

i juz hope u to be happy,

but i cant imagine dat,

to make u happy,

at the same time,

i feel upset...

all i hope

all i wish

is juz love from u...

but now i noe dat,

no matter how much i luv u,

no matter how much i care for u,

no matter how much i dun wish to let u go...

i still hav to do this...

to make this decision,

is very hard for me...

to luv someone is difficult,

but to let go someone i luv,

is a thing where everyone feels hard to do...

i noe u understand this theory better than me...

wad i hav promise u,

i will do it...

i will keep my promise to u...

maybe u will think dat i am too young for u...

but although i am younger than u

doesn't mean i dun hav my own world,

and my own point of view on things...

not everything u think is true...

wad i am thinking is,

i juz hope i could hav a part of memory,

dat is be wif u...

ntg can last long forever in life...

ntg belongs to anyone forever...

all i wish is juz a memory,

i dun mind whether it is a

long term or short term memory,

but one thing we can own is memories...

n i hope u can understand me...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

frens...

i noe i din sam pat for dunno how many months le...

maybe emo is getting away from me

i dunno la...

i also wish i can be hyper n crazy...

wish everyone hav a wondeful

merry Christmas & happy new year... ^^

♥sighs...♥

2009-12-17T12:37:00.005+08:00

looking at my own blog...

dunno wan to write wat...

haiz...

2 days din blog le...

weird huh...

used to blog everyday...

but then now my mind is totally blank...

wad should i write?

hmmm

sry, i still dunno wat to write...

but there are few words

dat can describe wad i feel now...

blur

bored

disappointed

sad

being hurt

emo

in pain...

being toy...

and lastly...

i feel like myself is juz NOTHING to someone...

♥sticky sweet♥

2009-12-15T01:33:00.002+08:00

fall in luv to Sticky sweets adi...

hehe...

next time muz try other flavours too...

thx alvin for buying me

one bottle of lemon flavour de...

today whole day stay at home...

oh ya...

tmr craft day...

yeah...

wont be on9 for whole day le...

coz modem need to see doctor...

need to fix smtg...

so tmr do craft le...

k la...

ntg happen today also...

hehe...

nite nite...

♥开心的一天♥

2009-12-14T01:06:00.002+08:00

谢谢你给了我一个

这么开心

和值得留恋的一天...

好久都没觉得那么开心，

和轻松了...

连续几个月，

都背着很大的压力，

幸好有几位朋友，

每次都陪我发泄……

今天得到了还蛮多糖果的，

全部我都好喜欢哦……

因为是一位

对我一直都很好，

很疼我的人送给我的，

在这里再次谢谢你！

姐姐也买了一些

手工纸给我，

很美，我很喜欢……

而我也送了这位朋友，

一本书，

是来至于Starbucks coffee 的

一本planner...

看到他拿不释手的样子，

我自己也觉得很开心哦，

因为当我送给朋友或家人礼物，

当看到他们脸带着笑容，

又充满了惊喜是，

我就觉得很有满足感……

好了，

夜了，

眼睡了，

哈哈，

晚安咯……

♥sorry & forgive♥

2009-12-13T00:29:00.003+08:00

sry for accidentally hurt u,

and i din mean wad i hav said...

haiz...

i think i really hurt too many ppl

in my life so far le...

even, best fren can turn to enemy...

or even strangers...

understand that no matter how many times

i say i'm sorry,

it wont wash away all the pains and hurts...

i juz hope u would giv me a chance,

and let me ask for a permission,

from u for getting forgiveness...

因为我的幼稚，

令我不会去想，

别人的感受，

只顾自己。

自私自利，

好想告诉你们，

我知错了，

可是我知道，

这一切一切，

已经太迟了，

就算后悔，

也已经来不及了。

不乞求你们的原谅，

因为这全部，

都是我自己应得的后果，

可我会努力的，

收藏我们曾经

一起度过的回忆，

无可否认，

和你们能成为好朋友的时光，

我真的觉得好甜蜜，

好开心哦。

谢谢你们给了我

这些开心的回忆。

对不起，

因为我们不可能

再创造更多的回忆了。

♥friday♥

2009-12-11T00:46:00.001+08:00

during the holiday,

i started to wake up very late...

haha...

not enough sleep

for few months adi...

feel so tired after the finals...

muz get more rest

in this 2 weeks holiday le..

if not sure cannot stand

till next semester,

now i hav to think about wad subject

to take in next semester...

and also degree after my 3rd sem,

i really got no idea wad degree

i suppose to go further for...

btw,

sunday goin out...

is time to go out n hav fun adi...

stress whole semester liao...

beh tahan er...

k la...

dats all for today le...

nite nite

♥finally~~♥

2009-12-10T22:49:00.002+08:00

today last day of exam...

feel happy,

but at the same time,

feel disappointed too...

happy coz finally finish finals,

got holiday,

can relax awhile...

sad coz din do well in exam,

as in the whole semester,

holiday 2 weeks only...

and worry for result,

scare retake..

btw,

whatever it is..

is adi pass le...

dun care le la...

retake the retake la...

haiz...

k la..

2am adi,

oioi time...

nite nite...

gud luck to those

who having business paper...

♥幸福快乐♥

2009-12-10T00:54:00.003+08:00

朋友们，

到底我在你们的心中，

是一个怎麽样的朋友？

我对你们来说，

到底是什么？

是哪来利用的工具吗？

还是什么？

有时候，

当我想要说出我的心事是，

你们说是说，

人在我旁边，

可到底你们的心，

你们的耳，

又是不是正在倾听呢？

还是我正在跟空气说话？

难道我真得那么烦吗？

那么令你们讨厌吗？

那不如就不要和我做朋友啊。

没有朋友的生活，

我已经习惯了。

孤独对我来说，

已经成为了我的好友，

快乐已经成为了我的敌人。

眼泪已是我的知己。

为什么没人明白我？

难道改变自己，

才是唯一的出路吗?

可我不可能,

在这么短的时间里,

可以做到的啊.

幸福和快乐，

你们到底在那里？

你们可以不要离我那么远吗？

我真的觉得好孤单哦。

♥真心♥

2009-12-08T22:19:00.002+08:00

如果有人问我，

他到底值不值得我对他好。

我会回答他说，

如果真心的付出，

真心地对一个人好。

是不会介意，

更不会在意，

他是否值不值得，

或应不应该，

得到这种待遇。

对我来说，

当我真心的对一个人好，

我根本不要求

他的回报，

我只是会期望，

希望他会开心，

不想他和我一起的时候

会有不开心的感觉。

难道曾经付出，

就一定要得到回报吗？

♥stupid...♥

2009-12-08T01:50:00.002+08:00

today cts paper...

ergh...

damn it...

i lost 10 marks adi...

over 40..

dunno still can pass CTS anot...

dunno y myself so careless,

confuse while exam time...

make the whole thing now 0...

is '0'...

='(

too bad ntg i can do now adi...

too late...

suan le ba...

still hav one more paper to go,

on thursday, microecon...

hopefully i wont so careless liao...

tmr n wed study...

coz holiday..

k ler..

late adi,

wan oioi le...

nite nite..

♥new house, new room♥

2009-12-07T01:35:00.001+08:00

bye bye Ampang,

n welcome sungai buloh...

haha...

siao siao adi..

btw,

finally i had my own room liao...

yeah...

so many pinky pinky in my room...

haha...

luv my new house a lot...

today relatives came here

to eat and also visit...

will post pic when everything is settle...

coz now...

erm...

not yet finish cleaning...

hahaha...

n still got some furniture not yet reach...

so tired today...

but still need to study...

study from 8pm till now...

eyes wan close adi...

tmr CTS and account...

screw up wei...

so many thing to memorize...

haiz...

k la..

wan continue study le...

2am only oioi...

tata...

♥dying...♥

2009-12-05T00:26:00.001+08:00

feel so tired after exam...

english paper 2 and half hours,

malaysian studies 1 hour plus...

sit till pain la the back...

hahaha...

write essay till hand shake...

although the time duration is long...

but still can say not enough time to think...

btw,

tmr hav to wake up at 5:30am...

coz need to fetch the monk

to bring the Buddha image from

my old house, to my new house...

oh yeah...

cant wait to hav my own room...

wakaka...

k la...

wan sleep le..

bye..

♥Bubu's life...♥

feelings that go from 2011 - 2012

学会珍惜

琐碎的小事

bad… very bad….

恐慌

believe & trust

lovely day

holiday~~

miss you~~

关心

silent mode

玩偶

my way

快快乐乐的

新年咯！！！！！！！！！

should and shouldn’t

兄妹情

习惯了现在

走一步还是停留原地？

心意

new year

31/12

圣诞节

原来我也有这样的一天

holiday

不想，不管，不理

幸运小女孩

Tiring

byebye

Hi :D

first step

plan

birthday

good sign

mooncake

pray

sorry bloggy

♥很有感情的歌♥

♥雨过天晴♥

♥First day being a teacher♥

♥the end♥

♥cute & funny dance♥

♥偶像剧♥

♥丁当 - 我爱他♥

♥great friends♥

♥random♥

♥hurt♥

♥me♥

♥chances♥

♥ending♥

♥最熟悉的陌生人♥

♥lazy♥

♥♥Gopeng Earth Camp♥♥

♥爱与被爱♥

♥第一步♥

♥mid term♥

♥happy cny & valentines♥

♥busy♥

♥代价♥

♥quizzes♥

♥路过的人♥

♥lose patience♥

♥bottom of the heart♥

♥reset♥

♥dunno how♥

♥sis 21st b'day♥

♥矛盾♥

♥friends forever♥

♥过去♥

失去对方过后，

留下的可能

只是一张照片；

所谓一张照片能说千言万语，

看着自己照片里

的微笑，

却让现实生活中

的自己流泪。

在这一刻，

才发觉，

所谓一张照片
能说千言万语，